Friday, December 31, 2010

A New Me????

This year has been a mix for me... I have lived in 3 different states.. started out with a deployment.. dealt with a couple more small ones... and random other things....

In the process of moving from Ca. to Wa. I have lost my self control and gained about 9 pounds... which makes me very sad... but I am also at a point where it is hard to care.. I am miserable about the way I look but also miserable about how much I have to control my food intake to look anywhere near halfway decent..

I have no motivation to exercise whatsoever, I have never enjoyed exercising.. ever.. I used to do it a lot when I was younger.. but now i find myself avoiding it at all costs... I tell myself to do things.. but then I never do... I know I can't be fat and happy, but I also cannot be so constricted and happy too.. talk about sad.. .Ok.. so I am not going to make a resolution to exercise more or lose weight.. cause I don't think that it would matter if i did.. but I can tell you that I do want to look better.. and surgery is definitely in the cards for my future. Yes, I am going to be that person.. cosmetic surgery to fix the only part of my body that I am not happy with...
I wear a size 4 in jeans that falls down if I do not wear a belt yet my stomach hangs over the top on all sides.. and I look disgusting ... unless of course I wear a girdle.. that is extremely uncomfortable.. but when i do that I have to wear my belt even tighter because my girdle is slippery and my pants fall down.. sigh.. Here you can see kinda what I am talking about... I was wearing a tight shirt over a lose one, hence the purple hanging out the bottom.. but because my shirt is black it hides better.. but you can still see the lump.. kinda.. i will get a better picture at a later date.

I do realize I am not huge, I am not trying to debate about this.. the fact of the matter is that my belly/spare tire hangs over ALWAYS and I hate it.. period.. I am not comfortable in any clothes unless they hide it.. and not many do.. I am perfectly happy with the size of EVERY other part of my body save for my middle..

I personally do not believe that any amount of exercise is going to make this better.. especially since I did actually work with a trainer for several months back in 2009.. and nothing happened... didn't even really lose weight when I was doing that.. it was depressing.. also I am sure the fact that I have had 3 c-sections and surgery to separate my uterus from my abdomen wall has not helped matters...

sooo... this year I will be working to save up some money so that I can have my microbody sculpting procedure done... and I am really looking forward to that..

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Out with the old

Well the end of the year is fast approaching and with it the change that must come.. I read about resolutions of others and think of myself... What would I want to resolve to do .. I think it would be the same thing that I always resolve to do, not just on New Years, but always. ... I resolve to become a better person... everyday to grow a little, every day to learn a little... Every day to let the ones around me know that I care ... To give to others that need it..To be the friend I would want for myself.

This year has past by quickly for me .. I have lived in 3 different states, traveled many many miles, renewed relationships with family, and given to others.. All in all it has been a pretty good year...

Christmas was wonderful and I got everything I could have wanted... I am blessed in so many ways.. and my kids .. well they are

We were able to give a few wonderful gifts to Mom & Dad and see the look on their faces like they were kids again.. To bring tears to Moms eyes with a gift is the best present I could get... and you should have seen dad playing with his made me so happy to make them happy.. Unfortunately I don't have pictures because this year I resolved to enjoy everything rather than trying to run around capturing it... Kris did take a few though... :)
The kids reactions to getting their bikes and Alora getting her little atv thing was wonderful.. Mcleod thought his bike was for Alora looks at her atv and says .. Mommy? Mine? I said yes Alora, it is yours. Then she proceeds to run up to me with her arms spread to hug me.. <3 It was wonderful! Tristan gave his normal overly enthusiastic response to everything he received, very appreciative, and very Photobucket
Next year we will be moving again around Christmas time and we won't have so many presents, but I can guarantee it will be just as good, if not better than it was this year.. :)

Monday, December 20, 2010

It is better to give.....

I have always enjoyed giving gifts... as a matter of fact, I usually end up going overboard.. especially at Christmas

I love to see the look on someone's face when they love what I have gotten for them.. it really gives me a wonderful feeling.

I have to admit though sometimes I feel twinges of jealousy when other people receive awesome gifts and I don't receive anything in return. I fight with myself over this... Many times when I do receive things I end up wondering why I got it.. mostly because it is usually not something I would choose for myself.. I always wonder if people really know me or if I hide to much of myself .. because if they knew me at all then maybe they would better be able to choose gifts for me.. As my husband says.. I am really hard to shop for i guess... lol..

So, this Christmas season.. my goal is to not be so concerned with what I receive... because it really doesn't matter... What matters is that I have a wonderful family that loves me and that I am very happy .. I really do have everything that I could ever ask for.. :)

I want for everyone to take a look at themselves.. do you get disappointed when you get a gift that you "didn't want" or "didn't like" well don't! There is no reason to ... Someone was thinking about you! Someone in your life had you on their mind as they scanned the internet, shopped the crowded stores, or handmade what they thought would be the perfect gift for you.. What? you don't think it is perfect? Your wrong! As fellow Blogger Kandee said, it is the perfectly imperfect gift for a perfectly imperfect you!

Sometimes even when we believe we are an open book and it is more than obvious what we want for Christmas.. we are usually wrong.. so open those perfectly imperfect gifts and see them for what they are.. A BEAUTIFUL THOUGHT ABOUT YOU!

Merry Christmas Everyone!

And for a little photo pleasure.. Here is a great picture that I took with my new E5..:)

Sunday, December 19, 2010


Well, I went in for a consultation on Saturday at Athenix body sculpting institute, to find out about micro-body contouring... and natural breast augmentation... it definitely looks like something I would want to do... IF they didn't try to over charge me.. They say that the charges are $995 per area.. mmm hmm.. but they break your abdomen down into 3, yes thats right 3 areas! It is ridiculous... Not only that they charge 1500 just for the room, that you are only in for a couple hours btw... doesn't seem worth it if you ask me.. soooo I am going to have my velashape done since it is already paid for and that will probably be the end of it.. we shall see how that works out.. and I will let you know... but $8000 for someone my size is just above and beyond what we are willing to pay right now.. and I still cannot get over them trying to charge the abdomen as 3 areas instead of 1 like it is. crazy...

Thursday, December 16, 2010

My Birthday...

Things have been a little hectic around here and I haven't posted much ...I will try to remedy that and post more often as it is quite the release for me... Anywho... My birthday passed on the 12th and I was lucky enough to be remembered by my family and friends in the form of texts, calls, and fb messages...I love you all and really appreciate you remembering me.

My inlaws were able to come into town for the day so that Kris and I could go to lunch and a movie.. it was nice to be able to spend time with just him... that doesn't happen often these days ...We also finally decorated the tree while the parents were here so that was nice also..:)

Decorating the tree...:)

I have been feeling off lately for a few reasons.. physically because I believe that i have a sinus infection... emotionally.. because.. well.. sometimes I just feel.. invisible... I am around a lot of people in cyber world on a constant basis.. but I get the feeling most days that people are humoring me and could care less if they ever heard from me again.. yeah i know.. gotta love the pity me ok, so i don't really want pity..but I know that is how this will be taken.. I am sure everyone feels this way sometimes.. or maybe not.. maybe I am just being ridiculous ... either way... I don't normally share this feeling with others...

Now, on to other I finally have my E5 camera and am looking forward to getting a chance to use it.. but with weather the way it is right now and not having an indoor studio I am not sure when that is going to be... sigh..

Well, I guess that is it for now... I will be posting about my upcoming cosmetic procedures next time... :)

Thursday, December 2, 2010

It has been awhile....

Well December is here... only 10 more days until I turn 31 and soon Kris will be back home with us again... Things have been a little crazy lately...

On Monday the 20th we had a bit of a snow storm here and a LOT of power outages.. Our power was out from 6pm Monday night until 12:30 am Wednesday... so a bit over 24 hours without power in 20 some degree weather.. but we managed... we lit a bunch of candles and camped out in my room.. Nicole came to stay with us here since her power was out too... It was nice having another adult to talk to during that super long

The Navy also decided to do some fun stuff with our money this month so that messed things up a bit.. hopefully we will be able to get all of that worked out soon..

Other than that.. things have been pretty good.. been doing some Christmas shopping and you know I went out on black friday.. Had to get my drill from sears you I bought a few things online too like a new TV for my husband and a washer and dryer for me.. hey .. that doesn't sound right...lmao.. Oh well.. I love my new washer and dryer.. It is wonderful to be able to do big loads of laundry and wash my comforters again!

This is mine now!! The Maytag Bravos

I am looking forward to doing another giveaway on my blog.. but with the recent events that probably won't happen till January or February now.. but it will happen! So keep a look out ladies! If anyone would like to donate something for a giveaway I would be happy to do it for you!

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

From there to here.....

Well, it has been awhile since I have blogged.. things have been rather busy.. I left California on Nov. 6th with Kris, my dad, and all the kids.. We drove over to Glendale, Arizona so that I could go to my commencement ceremony.. unfortunately I do not have any good pictures of me walking because I failed to teach Kris how to use my camera prior to the ceremony... But there are a few snapshots that we took afterwards..

After leaving Arizona we headed up to Las Vegas and got a room at the Excalibur.. that was a huge disappointment... the room was awful.. but we had a good time anyway.. spent way to much money, and dad gave Kris & I a date night..:) We went to the eiffel tower restaurant and spent a boat load of cash and got some good food..A little miscommunication kept us from going to see a show.. but thats ok.. we still got to enjoy each others company.

We left Vegas and headed to Reno.. We stayed at the Atlantis in the Concierge tower and let me tell you it was beautiful! Best hotel room I have ever stayed in! They had free Hors d'oeuvres, breakfast, and dessert in the evening! I wish I could always stay in places like that!

We continued on to Portland, Oregon and drove through the mountains and lots of snow to get there.. ended up buying chains for the tires because of the amount of snow on the road....Stayed at a horrible days inn while in portland got up early and left for Washington... Finally made it here on the morning of Nov. 10th and got our house... Then began all the days of work.. deliveries, installations, shopping, and then Kris left to go back to SD.. and I found out that the van is broken and leaking gas from the fuel tank.. :( Then Dad left to fly back home .. So now I am dealing with the insurance company and trying to see if they will fix it.. but I have to take it in to a shop and have them look at it first to see "what caused it" They said if it is normal wear and tear they won't cover it ... but if it is something damaged then they will .. but the appraiser who glanced under my car said he couldn't see anything so as it stands they aren't going to cover it..

Lots of snow!

Arriving in Tacoma

So I am going to take my van in tomorrow morning and see if they can diagnose the problem.. and if it is something that the insurance company will cover then I will get a rental car.. if not.. then I will just go without my car for who knows how long.. sigh.. I really should go to the grocery store and get some more food before that

I have had the good fortune to be spending much more time with Nicole lately too.. it is so nice having her live close to me...

I am also looking forward to getting to meet some of the other Navy Wives up here.. Next week we are all doing Thanksgiving here at my place.. so that should be a lot of fun... :)

I guess that is about it for now..

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Time to move...

Well, the packers came yesterday and packed up all our stuff.. those guys were hilarious and definitely made the day more enjoyable and a lot less boring... I can say that it is definitely nice to have Kris here to take the kids off somewhere while I stay with the movers rather than having to deal with kids and movers at the same time.

We did have a small set back on monday.. The idiots at Cox decided to shut my internet and cable off 5 days early! So after much complaining and yelling at those idiots they credited us for the next 6 days and came back the next morning to turn it back on.. ugh.. So we missed monday night Raw.. so not happy about that...

Right now the movers are here and taking all of our stuff to the trucks... looking at all of our stuff packed makes me realize that I definitely did not get rid of enough stuff! I hope that I can find a place for it all without having a garage.. It is going to be like playing tetris with totes when we get there! LMAO!

I can say this though, I will surely be trying to get rid of more things as I unpack. We need to continue to lighten our load and not carry around things that are not in use or important to us.. of course random holiday decorations like Christmas and Halloween do not count in this equation.. I will not be getting rid of that

I will however be putting up my Christmas tree as soon as I get to Washington.. Since dad and Kris will both be in the house for only a couple days after we get there.. yea.. I am hoping that we can get the delivery on the 11th or even 10th so that I can do that.. since dad has changed his schedule and is now leaving us on the 11th instead :( ... Kris had to take leave early to be here for my graduation so he is leaving us by the 13th or 14th i think... but i am glad that he is able to be here for my graduation at least...

I am looking forward to meeting all the Navy wives up in Bremerton and having the Thanksgiving potluck since I know many of our husbands will still be in san diego for that holiday...

Anyways, this was a lot of Tomorrow the cleaners get here and then my dad... and friday it is time to do the final inspection and head off to Arizona... :)

Friday, October 29, 2010

Finally Approved!

After an extremely long wait Kris' leave finally got approved today and good thing to cause it starts today! lol.. I am so happy that he will be able to be at my commencement ceremony.. I am so thankful for everyone's prayers, this was very important to me.. I will have the two most important men in my life at my graduation, my husband and my father. :)

And for a little photo relief.. here is a picture of my silly husband and his

With all the happiness today has recently brought me I also have much sadness for some dear friends of mine ... I pray that God will soon heal their hearts and that they know how much I care for them... Much love and prayers to you all...

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Some great news!

So as many of you know I have been having some serious issue with my going to my commencement.. like the fact that Kris probably won't be there and there is no way my dad can handle my brats.. so it was looking like I was going to have to cancel..

Luckily a very wonderful lady named Brandy who is currently residing in Arizona offered to watch my bunch during the commencement! She is a life saver! I cannot tell you how ecstatic I am that she is doing this for me.. and how very thankful! If she wasn't going to watch them then I would not be going. So again from the very bottom of my heart.. thank you so much Brandy!

Another great thing that happened today... Living Social had a great deal today for a 4 hour house cleaning for only $59 bucks! So of course I jumped on it and now have my house scheduled for cleaning the day after the movers come and take all of our things! How excellent is that! I don't have to worry about cleaning my house now either! What a relief!

I tell you if I could finally get word from Kris about the leave today would be an over the moon excellent day!

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

A little bit of me...

I have been feeling very frustrated and angry lately.. mostly due to still not having ANY word on whether or not Kris will have leave for our move... and it only being 2 days until he is supposed to start leave. To say the least it is starting to grate on my nerves and I am finding it hard to not show my anger over the situation.

The biggest reason I am so bothered by it is because if he doesn't get leave that means no commencement ceremony for me.. and that upsets me.. I usually don't plan anything .. but I had this planned around the navy's dates.. but of course they changed their plans.. too bad I can't just change mine so easily.

Anyways, luckily I have been kept busy for the past 3 days with my inlaws being here.. It is always nice to have them around.. plus the kids LOVE it!

I have also had some exchanges going on with ASA for Christmas time and the Milspouse giveaway that I did here on my blog.. I was a little disappointed that I only had a few entries.. but maybe next time there will be more. I plan to do another giveaway sometime in December I believe.

If any of my lovely Navy ladies make things that they would like to donate for a giveaway I would be more than happy to have a contest for one of your pieces!

Let me leave you with this thought.. although things do not always go our way it is how we deal with those things that can either drag us down or lift us up. Sometimes things are going to make you angry, and that is ok.. but don't let it keep you down to long.. things will get better .. Smiles are contagious.. so give some away!

And just for a little photo relief here is a picture of my "Twins" lol

Congratulations tooooooo.......

Jessica Koenig! My gorgeous little "vanna white" Alora picked your name out of the hat!
I hope you enjoy your beautiful new bracelet from Gambizzle Jewels!

I will be having another Milspouse giveaway around Christmas time so keep a lookout for another giveaway!

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Giveaway Day!

Hello Ladies! Today is the day of my giveaway! I am giving away this beautiful bracelet from Gambizzle Jewels She is another Navy Wife that creates wonderful Jewelry, You should definitely check out her site!
Here is the piece I will be giving away!

Ok, so here are the rules! Post a comment with your name, military affiliation, and why you want to win this bracelet! I will keep this open till Monday the 25th and then choose a winner! Remember, you have to be a follower of this blog in order to join the contest! Once a winner is chosen you have 24 hours to claim your prize or I will choose someone else.

Thank you so much for your support of our military!

Thursday, October 21, 2010

A little bit of everything..

Well, there is about two weeks until it is time to get out of here.. and we still don't know anything about Kris' leave.. fun stuff.. oy.. We were able to get rid of a lot more stuff.. even a bunch of Kris' clothes.. So we have lightened our load tremendously.. that is always a good thing.. So now we are just waiting and getting all the food out of our freezers..

I have been stressing out quite a bit lately and things have been bothering me more than normal.. after a conversation with Nicole, my fil, and Kris.. I am feeling a bit better... but still feeling very anxious.. hopefully that will show up as weight loss for me and finally push me to my

I have also found myself very touched by some things my FF Nicole said about me recently.. and I really appreciate the fact that I have her. I don't know what I would do without her.. it is going to suck at the end of next year when we have to say good-bye.. and I can tell you, I will be planning trips to visit wherever she is .. and of course I will harass her via skype like I do

Last night was a bad night for me.. not only was it hard to fall asleep due to the drunken snoring of Kris, but when I finally did it was to wake up to myself screaming from a nightmare.. that is always fun.. I would explain the dream.. but it wouldn't make much sense.. so I will abstain from that.. After I woke up from the scream I had a splitting headache.. so I took ibuprofen and went back to sleep.. luckily the rest of my dreams were good for the most part...but I tell ya, that does not make for waking up feeling well

I have been listening to a lot of the music I grew up on lately.. lots of 80's and 90's rock.. and it makes me feel good.. a lot like my old self.. kinda makes me want to get one of those ipod things too so i can make several different playlists depending on my Rock works best when I am frustrated...

I do realize this blog has been kinda all over the place, but I couldn't really decide on a particular subject to write about .. so it ended up just being about onward and upward! Saturday's blog will be about the giveaway contest!

And since I don't think I have mentioned it.. I had to get several inches cut off my dead dead hair.. it is short.. but I am happy with it.. :)

Monday, October 18, 2010

Giveaway soon Update

So I posted a blog previously stating I would be doing a giveaway soon with one of Gambizzle Jewels pieces.. so Now I am going to tell you the actual date! Saturday the 23rd of October I will start the giveaway contest! So keep your eye out and make sure if you want to join the contest you are a follower of this blog! :) See you on Saturday!

Friday, October 15, 2010

GiveAway Coming soon...

Hello My fellow Navy Wives..

I just wanted to let you ladies know that I will be doing a giveaway soon on my blog.. I recently purchased some Navy inspired jewelry from Gambizzle Jewels .. This lady makes some awesome stuff!! So I will be doing a giveaway with one of her pieces! :) Make sure and tell your other navy wife friends because the giveaway will only be available to followers of my blog! :)

This is the lovely bracelet that I will be giving away! :)

Nothing different really...

Just as the title states.. there is nothing much different going on.. We still don't know when Kris' leave is going to be.. We did however decide that even if he doesn't leave with us that we would just head to Vegas from Arizona and stay two nights there.. So I booked us two nights at the Excalibur.. if he gets to go with us.. then we will only stay the two nights.. if not.. Then we will stay a third so he can fly into vegas to meet up with us.. Things around the house are pretty much the same.. I have been getting rid of more stuff and packing.. I have tried heavy cleaning but with 3 weeks left here it is pretty much pointless..

I still have to ship out some stuff.. Mainly a box full of clothing to my friend in Florida.. I figure it is better to give the stuff to her rather than haul it up to Washington with me.. especially if I am not going to wear any of it. I have a lot of stuff that just takes up space.. I was finally able to let go of some old things I have been holding onto since i was about 13 or 14 years old.. One is an old jewelry box that has definitely seen better days.. and although I kept the stuff that was in it.. it was time for the box to go.. Then there was the caboodles that my dad bought me.. I probably used it for a couple years.. but it hasn't had anything in it since i can't remember when.. so it was time for it to go.. sad but true.. but I gave it to someone to give to their grandchildren.. so hopefully it will continue to be used.. :) And lastly.. my first camera.. that my dad bought me.. with the back held on by duct tape.. lol.. The Canon snappy EL.. which I always thought was funny cause those are my Dad's so here are those things that it was time to let go of.. I took a picture to keep the memory.. :)
The Jewelry box

The Caboodles..
The Snappy EL (Eddie camera... hehe


Saturday, October 9, 2010

Just a little..

Update to life... Yesterday I called up housing in Bremerton and got our new address.. very happy about that.. I also scheduled the shut off for our cable here and set up the turn on date for service in Wa. :) It is nice to have things done..

However, I am still waiting to find out whether Kris will get leave or not.. and for what dates.. I am hoping that we will know something this week about that so we can get things taken care of.. but either way we have our first 3 hotel nights booked.. and that is something at least..

I still need to find a coat for Tristan and I am hoping to find a good one tomorrow at Jcpenney.. they are having a rockin sale so I am thinking yes..:)

I have learned something else over the past couple days... Nicole left for Washington on Friday.. so we haven't had a whole lot of contact lately.. I know.. it was just yesterday.. but it seems like longer.. in the past few weeks we have spent even more time than normal with one another in person.. and I think that made her leaving I am looking forward to getting up to Washington and actually living closer to her so we can hang out more..:)

Another thing I have re-learned lately.. I love Google Earth/Maps... I have been able to look around the streets in my neighborhood with the click of a mouse.. how convenient .. what a great way to get a feel for your neighborhood before you even get

So that is my update... I have done pretty much everything I need to do for the move sans some cleaning... so I am happy about that.. still have a few things to get rid of but .. I don't know if I will actually attempt another garage sale...since I don't like having to sit in my garage for several hours hoping someone will show So anyways.. you get the idea..

Haven't been taking many pictures lately.. so unfortunately nothing for the blog.. sorry!

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Still Waiting...

On leave approval that is.. yep, that's right.. We still don'tknow if Kris will be traveling with us or not.. We are pretty sure however that he will not be coming to see me graduate.. which makes me very sad.. I really wanted to share that with my best friend, the man who has supported me throughout all of this... I don't know what I would do without him... I am very happy that my dad is going to be there with me.. but it is hard to shake the sadness of my soul mate not being there.. sigh...

I love him sooo much!

Soooo anyways... I have been working on getting more things packed up.. more things sold .. and just getting rid of things all together.. I am really hoping that somehow we will be able to fit all of our stuff in the new house.. it may be a little complicated since we won't have a garage.. but we shall see.. I am considering having another yard sale on saturday.. but honestly at this point I am just too tired to do it anymore..

I went shopping the other day at Jcpenney cause they were having a sale.. and got the most awesome gift for a friend of mine.. and since she probably reads this blog... I can't tell you till after I give it to I also got myself a Nike pullover.. I am not a fan of Nike exactly.. but their pullovers are soooo comfortable! I got my first one from a friend of the family a few years back for Christmas...and a while ago I ended up with bleach spots on it.. to say the least Kris was a little embarrassed when I wore it out of the house.. lol.. so I went on the hung for a new one.. but could not bring myself to spend 50 bucks on it! Luckily Jcpenney has awesome sales and I got it much cheaper..:) I am planning to go back and get another cause I have more

Ok, so this was a bunch of so that is pretty much it for now..

Monday, October 4, 2010

Getting Closer....

Moving day that is... A month from now our house will be empty and my dad will be here.. ready to start our journey to Washington with a couple of stops.. We still don't know if Kris will be traveling with us or not.. No one can seem to get their head out of their butt long enough to sign a piece of paper saying yes he can go or no he can't.. to say the least I have been stressing myself out over this. Schedules with the ship also changed so now it is more than likely that Kris will not be going to my graduation on the 6th either.. sigh.. I wish they could just quit changing dates already..

On another note, I have sold some stuff and shipped some clothing to my sister and nieces so that is much less to be packed.. I still have a lot of things to get rid of and am really hoping that I can do it.. I think I may have another garage sale on saturday.. I believe that would definitely be beneficial to my

I know I mentioned doing 30 days of pictures but I haven't started it yet.. I was thinking of doing it closer to leave time.. that way I can get pictures of the trip.. of course with not knowing when we will have internet up there I know that I will not be able to do 30 days in only 30

However, maybe I can just take my pictures and post them whenever I finally do get internet..

So I will ask all of you to do something for me.. If you do pray.. can you pray that somehow Kris is able to come to my graduation.. it would really mean a lot to me... Thanks!

So I guess that is about it for now..

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Matter of Fact

It has come to my attention that some people may consider my matter of fact side rather rude. Or maybe they think I am angry.. So let me shed a little light on me.. If I am mad at you.. I will let you know.. I don't get mad easy (unless it is at Kris or my

When I talk to someone via, email, or IM.. The way I say things is the way they are.. I can guarantee there are no extra hidden connotations or anger.. No need to read between the lines.. If you are a good friend of mine, that is even more reason for you to know and understand this.. I don't get angry over minor stuff.. especially not stuff that very literally has nothing to do with me.. lol..

Everyone has their own personalities and mine just happens to be a pretty strong one... So if I say something to you and you start thinking I am mad.. chances are.. I'm not.. if you aren't sure, just ask..:) I will be happy to clear things up for you.

I regard honesty above all else, so you can be sure that if I tell you I am not mad that I am telling the truth.. I find no reason to lie.. it just seems pointless to me.

So my friends, just know that I am only being Matter of Fact, not angry when I tell you something... and if the way I talk bothers or confuses you.. feel free to let me know and I will try to be more sensitive to your nature. The last thing I want to do is to make my friends uncomfortable..

As a matter of fact... I am smiling right now.. and am most of the time.. :) I am a pretty happy person and like to see those around me be the same way..


Monday, September 27, 2010

ASA Crashed....... AGAIN

To say the least I am getting rather tired of the site crashing once a week.. I get even more tired of people basically getting pissed off at me for it. Yes, I know threads were lost when they had to reboot from a previous backup .. yes it sucks.. but it was only a weeks worth.. and no.. I cannot not do a backup of the site every single day.. Makes me want to shut the whole thing down just so I don't have to deal with it anymore.. sigh.. Ok.. so that was enough of my

I got the site back up and talked to the host about preventing it in the future.. I did what I could and am hoping it was enough.. only time will tell.. I will just make sure I do a backup right before I move.. cause heaven knows when I will have internet access back after I leave CA. ..

I have been tagged!

Ok since I got tagged by One Guy in a house of girls a while ago I figured I better get to doing this before I forget...

1. If you could have any superpower, what would you have? Why?
Only one.. hmm.. I am going to go with Teleportation.. would make those pesky deployments much easier..and visiting

2. Who is your style icon?
I don't actually have a style icon... I just try to find anything that is comfortable, looks good (most of the time) or doesn't make me look pudgy.. ie a lot of

3. What is your favorite quote?
When you stop learning, you stop living.. written by me... cause it is so very true .. knowledge is the bread of life.

4. What is the best compliment you've ever received?
I would have to say anytime people tell me that they love my photography that would be one of the best compliments I could get.

5. What playlist/cd is in your CD player/iPod right now?
I don't listen to music much.. at least not on a playlist.. it is usually the radio or pandora.. so there is no particular songs or artists.

6. Are you a night owl or a morning person?
Hmm... I am kinda in

7. Do you prefer dogs or cats?
Definitely a cat person... I like my animals the same way I like my people, independent and self sufficient.. I don't like having to take care of an animal like it is a child.. I have never needed to get a babysitter for my cats when I take a week long trip.. set them up with a feeder and waterer and several clean litter boxes and we are good to go.. No worries about them eating my shoes or tearing up my couch cause they are "depressed" that I am gone.. I never understood dog people.. but to each their own.

8. What is the meaning behind your blog name?
Pretty self explanatory... My blog is about life and the things that occur within it as I see them.. everyone sees things differently and these are my views.

It says I am supposed to tag others .. eek.. soo... I guess I will tag..

My Life as a Navy Wife
The Unique
The Chelette Family Blog
It's a step at a time
Controversial Studios
Mckee Family Blog
The Diary of a Navy Wife
Harris Family

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Photography Blog

So I decided since I am going to shut down my actual photography site that instead I would add a photography blog. I already have a fb account for my photography so this will just be a little addition to it. Anyways.. not much else to say about that.. just a little

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Age Vs. Height

Am I the only one who has trouble with this.. For me and I don't know why I do this, but I have always equated height with age.. To me, the taller you are, the older you are.. It is hard for me to see shorter people as older than me just as it is hard for me to see taller people as younger than me.

As for how I see myself.. I am not sure.. I see myself as a mature grown woman.. but I wonder if others see me that way.. or if they see me as a child.

Sometimes I think people treat me like I am much younger than I am which tends to drive me crazy... I always wonder if people determine my age by how I look or how I act. Or if they take a mixture of both. So then I wonder how "old" do people really think I am..

Does the fact that I have blond streaks in my hair hurt my photography business? Do people not believe how long I have been doing this because of the way I look? And to answer your question, No, I do not think I "look" younger than I am.. but I don't feel my

So what do you think? Do you determine someone's age by some menial factor like height? Do you determine it by maturity? appearance? A mixture of these?

If you took a look at me would you believe that I have 6 years of experience in Photography? Would you believe that I have been doing it for 5 years Professionally? Even more so.. would my hairstyle make you think less of me as a professional? I know tattoos can make someone seem less professional, so what about their hairstyle?

Tell me what you think.. :)

Here is a recent picture of me to help you out.


Monday, September 20, 2010

A Pause...

After the 30 days of me posts I have kinda been taking a hiatus... just didn't feel like blogging I guess.. not that there wasn't stuff to say...but there is always that voice in my head saying.. "maybe you shouldn't say that out loud" so most of the time, I don't.

Anyways, Kris came back on friday.. finally. We had the weekend together and now he is back at work for very long days.. .He leaves by 5am and it is now 630pm and he is still not home.. sigh.. I will be glad when this crazy schedule is over.

So today I just kinda woke up with an attitude... idk why.. just one of those days... random things all getting on my nerves... I went through some more stuff in my room and garage and added to our junk pile.. I will be so glad to get rid of most of this stuff.. Just carrying it around with us kinda drags me down... I would like to ship some of it home to florida to put in storage.. but it is doubtful that will happen... I know there is a lot more stuff I need to part with.. but as of yet I haven't been able to..

I am also slowly working on cleaning up the house.. you know "move out clean" Of course we will have one or two days here with no stuff in the house to clean up.. so it should be fairly easy to get it done then.. Only a month and a half left here.. and honestly.. I am ready to be done with it at this point.. I keep wondering where we are going to put all of our stuff since we will not have a garage at our place in Wa.. another reason why I have been working to get rid of things...

Ok so this just ended up being a bunch of random ramblings... I will try to blog more often.. hopefully.. I do need to start my 30 days of pictures.. just not motivated to do that just yet.

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

30 days of me- Day 30

Day 30 -- whatever tickles your fancy

I have to say I am happy that this 30 days of me journey is

Today hasn't been that interesting.. but I did get a few things scheduled. The movers called today and we will officially be packing out on Nov. 1st and 2nd.. and the truck is supposed to pick up our stuff on the 3rd. That might change a little after they come and do their inspection.. but all that would happen is one or two of the days will be cut off ..

I called Mcleod's orthodontist and made is last appointments.. He will be getting his braces off on the 26th of Oct. and they will give him a retainer.. We know that he will have to have braces again later.. but for now this is all they can do.. since he doesn't have all his adult teeth yet.. I informed him that if he doesn't wear his retainers like he is supposed to and his teeth go crooked again, I will not get him braces again.. so he will determine that. So for right now, his teeth are straight. :) I wish my parents had done that for me when I was 10! Would have saved me a lot of

I also ran an upgrade on ASA.. just some minor stuff.. bug fixes..stuff like that.. Made myself a new siggy since I have had the other one for soooo long.. even though I love it.. But I like my new one too..

I also got to talk via IM with a few great ladies today.. that is always nice.. I am so ready for this move stuff to be done already! lol..

Ok, so that is pretty much it!

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

30 days of me- Day 29

Day 29 - hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days

Hopes, dreams, and plans for the next year.. hmm.. well we are planning to move again, to where, I do not know yet but it will happen. We plan to visit all the places Kris remembers from growing up in Washington and we plan to have Tristan start school in August. My dad is planning to fly here on the 4th of November so he can ride up to Washington with us.. It should be a great trip.

My hopes... I hope that my family stays healthy and safe.. I also pray for that...I hope that my nieces enjoy spending the summer with me as they will be with me for June through August and I cannot wait to see them! I hope that I can have a positive impact on the lives of others and make them smile. I hope that no matter where life takes us we will always be able to view things positively. I hope that my family and friends always know how much I love and appreciate them.

My dreams.. well.. I don't know that I really have any dreams.. I have more than I could have ever dreamed of right now... I have a wonderful relationship with a man that I love so very much, three great kids that drive me batty at times but are still great kids.. One of the best FF's that I could ever ask for .. and many other friends that I have grown even closer with in the past years..
So I will say my dream is to continue to meet new people, have a positive impact on them and even make some new friends along the way.


Monday, September 13, 2010

30 days of me- Day 28

Day 28 - this year, in great detail

Hmm.. a year huh.. in detail.. well you probably won't get that out of me.. but... I will give you a few highlights..

August 2009

We were in florida preparing for a deployment and had alora's bday party early so Kris could be there. Spent time with family in Florida.

Sept 09
Flew back to SD packed up the house and put everything in storage with the help of some great friends. Kris flew out to meet me, we went to vegas.. said our goodbyes and I flew back to florida and he flew to the ship. Alora turned 1. I spent time with the ladies I met in pensacola Kela and Jen and time with my family in Lake City.


Oct. 09
Spent time with friends, went trick or treating with the kids. Started going to a church we liked.

Nov. 09
Went to live oak for thanksgiving. Spent more time with friends. Spent time with my nieces and visited with family.


Dec 09
Had my birthday alone at the house just myself and the kids. Got 3 days of gifts from Kris sent to me. :) Spent Christmas in Live Oak and Lake City .. got to spend it with my family for the first time in years! After Christmas my two youngest nieces got to come back to stay with me until it was time for me to move back to SD.

Jan 10
Hung out with my nieces a lot getting to know them and doing lots of shopping. Took them to get new glasses also. Played lots of computer games with Kami.
Celebrated Tristan's 4th birthday!

Feb 10
Spent more time with my nieces .. and my friends. Celebrated Mcleod's 10th birthday. Did a few photo shoots.

March 10
Time to say goodbye.. took the girls to Tallahassee so they could see the state capital before taking them home. Took Sapphire home and picked up Mystry. Spent my last two days with them and with Dad and Heather. Said all my goodbyes and cried as I drove away from my dads house for the last time. Left Florida with the kids and drove cross country back to SD. Got to SD 4 days later and went to Nicole's house. (thanks Nicole!) Got a place to live and Nicole & Whitney helped me out with my move in. KRIS CAME HOME!!! WOO!!!


April 10
I was so glad to have Kris home I don't remember this month! lol. I think easter may have been in there though.. not

May 10
Kris left a week before his birthday for a school in Jax. Celebrated Kris' birthday with a surprise party after he got home from his class in Jax.

June 10
Mystry came to visit us for two weeks and it was really great having her here!! We went to the state fair, twice! Got old tyme pictures taken.. had lots of fun.. then had to say goodbye.. Kris & I celebrated our 6 year wedding anniversary at the Melting Pot.. it was lots of fun!


July 10
Had a 4th of July bbq and lots of friends came.. even had a couple more bbqs after that..

August 10
Kris left early this month and was gone for most of it.. so i didn't do much.. I did do a couple pinup photo shoots though.

Sept. 10
Kris left again.. Did a photo shoot for Alora's bday and my inlaws came to visit.

So that is a year for me in a nut shell.. obviously there is much more that happened throughout that time.. but I don't remember enough to give details.. my life is more of a photo journey.. so if you wanna know what i did.. I am sure you can find it in pictures on

Alora is 2 years old

Today our baby girl turned 2 years old. It is a sad day for me .. for a few reasons.. one, our youngest and only daughter is growing up so fast, and two Kris cannot be here with us today. :( She is such a joy and the light of our life.. so for this birthday I am going to share some pictures of Alora throughout her two years of life.. :)

This picture was taken the day our precious girl was born... Sept. 13th 2008









This was the day she finally pulled herself up on her own! Easter 2009 :)


Alora on her 1st birthday Sept 13th 2009



Christmas time 2009

Father's Day 2010

Today on Alora's 2nd birthday..

With a picture of her daddy..:)

And finally being her silly self..

A lot of pictures I know, but what do you expect from someone who always has a